| Location | Houston Tx |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 07/09/2009 |
| Date of Death | 07/09/2009 |
| Visitors | 868 since 29/09/2009 |
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Emmy was due February 4, 2010. The morning of September 7th, 2009, when I was 18 weeks and 4 days pregnant, I woke up with some cramping and bleeding. After an ultrasound we found out that her heart was no longer beating. She meant a lot to us and we miss her so much every single day. Below is a letter I wrote to her and read outloud at her memorial.
To my daughter Emmy,
I love you so much and want you to know that you have been loved since the day your daddy and I found out that you were going to be a new addition to our family. We were so excited that day. In fact, we took 3 pregnancy tests just to make sure that we were reading the test right. The first person we told was your grandmother. We put your big brothers baby shoes in a box and let your grandmother open it. She was very excited and she loves you very much. She did everything she could to make sure that your mommy was OK so that you were OK. We will all miss you more that you can know.
The first time we saw you, I was 6 weeks pregnant. We gave you the nickname, Spec, because you were so tiny.
The first three months of being pregnant with you were difficult. I was sick all the time and I was really tired, but I would do it all again in a heartbeat. You were worth every minute of it.
Your daddy was so excited to become a father. I think that I could have not chosen a better daddy for you. He loves you so much. As soon as we read that you were able to hear, he would wake up in the morning and say “hello baby”. He was so ready to teach you everything he knew and more. He thinks you would’ve been smart, and I know you would have been. He misses you so much, and I am so sorry that you never got to meet him. Your daddy was so good to me when I was in the early pregnancy with you. I could not have asked for a better man to be your father. He always made sure that I was ok. He would go get mommy whatever it was that she was craving at the moment. Your daddy was always there to tell me that I was beautiful, and when I started showing, he would reassure me that I looked pregnant, not fat.
Your daddy and I both wanted you to be a girl. We would have been happy either way, but a little girl was what our heart desired. Your daddy bought you a pink blanket before we found out that you were actually a girl. When deciding on names, we only came up with a girls name. As long as I can remember, I have wanted a little girl. When I was in high school, I decided I would name my daughter Emmy some day. Your daddy liked this name also, so Emmy became your name. After I graduated from high school, my Great-Grandmother died, and I wanted your middle name to honor her name in some way, so we came up with Syann. It was spelled differently in the baby name book, but we wanted to make sure no one mispronounce your name. After we decided that your name would be Emmy Syann Phillips, we realized that your initials were ESP…and your daddy and I thought that was funny.
Losing you has been the worst emotional pain I have ever had to endure in my 28 years of life. I have never been so heartbroken. I miss waking up in the morning, knowing that you were close to my heart, and that in just a few months I would hold you in my arms. I feel like it is wrong to keep on with every day things with out you being here. I look around and wonder how the world is still turning. Your daddy and I miss you so very much. There has not been a day since you have left us, that I have not cried. The hardest part of losing you is not getting the chance to know you. I am saddened by the thought of never getting to kiss you or hold you. I was never even given the chance to tell you how much I loved you and I never got to tell you goodbye. We will never know what you would have looked like, what color eyes you would’ve had, how tall you would be, or if you looked more like mommy or daddy. My heart aches knowing we will never hold you in our arms, see your first smile, hear your laughter, or watch you take your first step. I do not understand why you were taken away from your daddy and I so early. The day we found out that your heart had stopped beating, was the day you took a piece of my heart.
With each passing day, I miss you more and more. I know that you are in heaven with Jesus now, but selfishly I want nothing more than to have you back, kicking around in my belly. It has been five days now since you became an angel, and losing you has not gotten any easier. Everything makes me miss you. Until now, I had no idea my heart could break in so many places. I do know, that there is a reason for everything, and even though I will NEVER understand why my you was taken from me, I have to believe that God had a reason.
Losing you has brought your daddy and I closer together and taught us many things. We have always loved each other, but now we realize that there are some things that are just not worth worrying about. To me, losing you has made me feel that the most important thing in this world is to have the ones you love close to you and to cherish each day with them.
You will never be forgotten, my sweet angel Emmy. As the years pass, I am sure that my heart will not ache quite so much, but I will always love you and I will always remember you. Your daddy and I will make sure that future brothers and sisters will know about their big sister Emmy. The shadowbox that your daddy, grandmother, and I made in your memory will always hang on our wall. We will be planting a tree in your memory at your grandfathers house, so that we will always have something to remember you by.
To my sweet angel, I want to thank you for coming into our lives. Your daddy and I will always love you and never forget you. One day we will meet in heaven and until that day, you will forever be missed
Lots of Love and Kisses,
Mommy
A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
I miss you Emmy. Mommy thinks about you every day and wishes you were still with us. Daddy and I love you very much.
An angel wrote in the Book of Life
My (Your) baby's date of birth
Then whispered as she closed the book
"Too beautiful for Earth"
I also lost my little angel Aimee-Sara at 18weeks. There is never a reason why hun. She will always be a part of u and watch over u xxx
Thinking of you xx
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To lose your child is the hardest loss to bare
No other loss on earth will compare,
Your hearts been broken, your soul ripped in two
This precious child is a part of you.
You don’t know if you can carry on
Others try to tell you to be strong,
You struggle with each passing day
The pain in your heart will never go away.
Days and months come and go
The grief you feel begins to grow,
The ache and longing is always there
You sit alone, you sit and stare.
Nobody knows what to say to you
But you need their help to see you through,
Friends seem to start to drift away
They can’t listen to what you'd like to say.
You remind them of what life could be
If it happened to them instead of you or me,
Nobody understands your pain each day
Some look at you and just have to walk away.
They can’t bare to see you cry
You can’t stop or live a lie,
This is your life now and it’s for real
Your broken heart will never heal.
So if you know a mum who has lost her child
Please try to understand,
She does not need your sympathy
She needs you to hold her hand.
Some special days will come along
These are the days she can’t be strong,
Birthdays, Christmas and Mothers day
Are the days she dreads in every way?
Then came the day that hurt her the most
The day her life ended it changed for ever,
Please let her know the presence of her child
Will stay with her forever and leave her never.
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